I have been wanting to get closer to Christ for awhile and getting prebaptised was a good start for me. Kevin and I decided to try and read the whole bible together. Thus, begins our journey doing QT every night before bed.
I honestly thought I was more “book smart” when it came to the bible. I mean I knew a lot of stories and what not, but Kevin never ceases to amaze me. I had just read a chapter and did not understand what it meant as the figurative language got deeper and deeper (WHAT IS THE LIGHT AND WHERE IS IT COMING FROM? WHAT DO YOU MEAN THE WIND WILL BLOW?!?!?) and my first thought was to look it up on google for an analysis of the Word. I guess Kevin could notice my frustration and asked what was wrong. He starts going through verse by verse and explaining the whole thing to me. I was dumbfounded. I have been praying for a godly man and he has been right in front of my own eyes. I had to stop and realize that God is always working in our lives and truly blesses us when we are undeserving of his gracious mercy.
i hate wedding planning.
I thank God for blessing me with such a kind hearted, understanding, and loving man ♡♥
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i am loved.
kevin is taking me to disney world in october!
AHHHH <3 im so excited!!
I can feel myself becoming the spiteful person again….
I have been so ungrateful, selfish, and angry for the past week.
Yesterday, I found old emotions of jealousy and bitterness
I couldn’t sleep with a heavy heart and started praying
to help me stay on the path of life and joy I have worked so hard for.
please let this be a bump in the road, not a dead end.
I wrote this entry 7 months ago. How things have changed since…
I’ve come to stop in my life where I have hit the ultimate bottom again.
and the worst part is im content with it…
all i feel these days are anger, contempt, jealousy, and rage.
i have stopped praying, QT, and reading my daily devotionals…
i’ve got a long journey ahead to find myself once again.
i can’t even realize how far i have fell back.